On the current state of my mental (an AAPI woman, mother, citizen in America 2023) I am A crab in a bucket. At H Mart and Joong Boo I watch the blue ones climb Over and over on top of one another. Slowly… aimlessly…never looking…never determined…just morbidly, stupidly, mindlessly… Sabotage. For AAPIs sometimes, we present more like the seafood already deceased. Out on display, Beautifully. …